I was born into a family whose perspectives on were very
harsh and destructive towards all who encircled it.
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A resident sketches a self-portrait for art therapy |
My parents decided to bring many children into the world. They
probably thought that they would solve their problems this way, something that
evidently didn’t happen.
As a girl, I found myself in a family of seven children. I
was nothing for my parents, nor to my siblings, and all who were around me. But
when someone had personal need and I was able to fulfill it, I was suddenly
someone – even someone important.
I was an expert at keeping secrets. Everyone knew this and
exploited it. They fought and I listened to both angry sides curse each other.
I didn't know what to do with all that I felt inside me. I was always trampled on, overlooked, and my self-confidence was destroyed. All of this went on until I turned 16 and decided that something wasn’t right and that I was not living as well as I deserved to live.
I started to send distress signals to the world, but still,
nobody paid any attention. As a result of extreme distress I swallowed pills
during school lessons hoping that someone would pay attention to me. But even
then nobody saw. All sorts of things happened and eventually I reached a
psychiatric hospital, spending half a year there.
In the end, I was sent to Beit Ruth. That was the best thing that happened to me in my life.

Since the beginning, everyone has tried to increase my
self-confidence. They have even succeeded somewhat, and they are still
continuing to build up my self-confidence which was so severely depleted. They
protect me from the people and the bad things that are likely to threaten me and
at last I feel good. I am able suddenly
to feel, and to to express my feelings vocally and receive a response.
I am able to dream and to try to help others who were in my
position to get out of their situation.
I know now that I much more than ‘nothing’ and that I have
something to offer the world – I am not just any other useless tool.
This is FREEDOM in my eyes.